Gonna rant a bit
So I got accepted into COFA to do a masters degree next year but idk idk idk idk. I don’t know if that is what I want to do i don’t know if I’m ready to study full time again i don’t know if I am good enough at art to justify studying it further and mostly I feel guilty for having been on centrelink like my entire life and maybe I am too old to live off government money which is what I would be doing as a student but also I’m not ready to be a real adult and have a boring job when I would rather be making art all the time which is what I am doing anyway but like I don’t really get money from doing that and any money I do earn I just spend on art supplies anyway (which are so expensive like, really). ALSO I FEEL BAD WHENEVER PEOPLE BUY MY ART like it’s not that good I’m sorry you spent money on this crappy thing I made.
Also I have been around sad people a lot the past couple days and it is making me sad too and I just want everyone to be happy but don’t know how to help.
Andddd I’m stressed about Christmas and my birthday and New Years which are all the same week and I’m scared to be around people and I’m scared to not be around people and I wish I could disappear or they didn’t exist or something
Oh and I’m stressed about being poor/ broke all the time like i don’t want to be a burden and I want to get everyone nice things andddddd I really want new clothes because I feel like I look terrible in everything I own
And other stuff that I don’t want to talk about like people anxiety stuff like heaps of that
this guy who was maybe homeless told me i look gorgeous today and to have a good day and to also have a good week naw
I only reblog pictures of my housemates now whatever